Eh.

I am now typing on my hubby's laptop. For the past month, it has been in the shop because the fan died, and when the fan died, the computer won't start up. Smart. The company didn't tell us until they'd had it a week that they had to order the fan from China, and there was no way to track it. So, fast forward a month, and here we are with a new fan in the computer. My hubby has his new desktop, I have his laptop, and things are ship-shape.

And while I am happy to be typing again on a computer that has a nice big screen and is not 11 years old (and fat and a little uncomfy), I think I may need to put this blogging thing on hold. See, I've been reading a lot of blogs ever since I went overseas, like The Simple Dollar, Mrs. Moneysaver, JustCara, General Blather, Get Rich Slowly, and Logtar's Blog, just to name a few (and I really do mean a few). I am a big fan of these blogs, but lately, writing my own just hasn't been as cathartic, or as interesting, as it had been. In order to have a sustainable audience, you need content and to be consistent. Right now, I've been neither of these things. And some things I think about don't need to be publicized for all to read. Like, for instance:

Is there ever a time in life where you don't question where you're going? There was a time I enjoyed the journey, but lately, it hasn't been as fun. I think it's because I don't know where I'm going. I see no purpose.

Will I ever find a job I like? I'm done being someone else's bitch, which is really how I've felt in this current position. Nothing I do is ever right. I don't answer the phone the right way. I don't save the Excel spreadsheets in the correct format. I print in color (gasp). I realize that the micromanaging boss is doing his job, but it is a real drag to go to a job where people don't think you're valuable and they never point out what you're doing right, only what you're doing "wrong". I have a subscription to Inc. magazine, and today I opened it up to read about companies people actually like to work for. I would like to belong to a place like that, but I'm finding it difficult to believe they actually exist. I also think starting a company would be great fun - and a ton of work - but not being a business person, I don't know where to begin going about it.

Will I ever find a church to belong to? One where people aren't just Sunday Christians, who are shitty to people during the week but think they're forgiven because they show up to zone out for an hour? And a place where I can swear with people nearby and they don't take offense or get all bent out of shape?

I guess the general theme here is, where do I belong?